Black Corner of My Eyes

I see you in my eyes,
in the corner of both my eyes.
Turned myself left and right,
there you are watching me staring at you.
Like a goddamn mirror.
Even at dawn the night cant seem to suffocate you with its blackness you still rose,
Even at night the sun cant erase your presence, like erasers killing itself trying to remove the carvings on the wall, you still appears,
but where are you, the core of you?
where were you when I needed you?
where is the piece I need of you to hold on to myself?

5.30 am in the morning it stings,
11.45 pm in the night it bleeds,
pus flows through the crack of these scabs,
it stinks like you,
but it feels so real like you,
at times it feels so right with you by my side,
through and through and especially the worst times,
because you rob all the good times away anyway.

I just wish you were a mask I needed to take off,
but you are the beat that my heart pumps off,
through veins and artery I am yours to conquer,
it always feels like you are my emperor,
the clocks ticks away my joy and you filled it with horror,
since 9 years ago you make me a man of complete error.